Friday, January 27, 2006
Sunday, January 22, 2006
Saturday, January 21, 2006
Thursday, January 12, 2006
Monday, January 09, 2006
Erin's Latest Obsession: Parenting books
ok, so does anyone else find themselves addicted to parenting books? I think it is a problem. Last semester I didn't even do all my reading for my class - instead I spent all my spare time trying to find out exactly what Ella was doing and why she was doing it. I needed to know what normal, developmentally regular babies are supposed to do at each stage - and then I panicked if Ella wasn't doing it.
Pathetic? Well, maybe. But what do you do when you feel completely clueless about what to do with this helpless infant entrusted to you and totally dependent upon YOU to make the right decisions? You read every book you can get your hands on, that's what you do. And each new book promises to be THE ANSWER to all your problems. But, then, it isn't. And it is so annoying because the experts totally don't even agree. So, how is a clueless mom like me supposed to know what to do?
How, you ask, have I managed to function with such insane expectations and thoughts in my weird little head? It hasn't been easy. Prayer (lots of it, that goes something like: God, help my baby go to sleep) and talking to my much calmer, more grounded husband. He reminds me that there is not just one way to raise a child well, that every child is different and won't follow the books all the time, and that I have to stop being afraid of making mistakes. When all's said and done, I might as well accept that she will need a therapist someday, anyway. ;)
Back to School...
Well, we had a lovely 3 weeks off, but now it is back to school for Ian, and Ella and I are back to hanging out together all day. Normally, I enjoy being with her, but I got spoiled letting daddy do much of the work - like changing diapers. :) Don't I got a great man?! Anyway, last night Ella woke up at like 2 in the morning, and I'm the one to do night duty when daddy has to work the next day. She cried until I gave her a pacifier and changed her diaper and gave me huge lovely smiles. But as soon as I tried to get her back to sleep...wahhhhh!!! That did not work. Three times she almost dropped off, but all to no avail. I heard cries and screams I hadn't heard before. What is going on? I finally gave up and fed her, which, as my friend calls it, is basically "nursing her into submission". She didn't sleep as well today, until I tried putting her back to bed really quickly so she wouldn't get overtired. So, any advice out there? Is she just crazy tired from all the crazy things we've been doing while on vacation? Is she teething? Did a dog next door wake her up? Is she now scared of the dark? Is 4 1/2 months a time for sudden night anxiety? Or was she just unusually hungry? I already miss the times when Ian is the one with night duty...
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
Monday, January 02, 2006
Teaching
This year I (Ian) am teaching at Vanguard Learning Center in Compton, part of Compton Unified School District. I am doing 7th grade World History for the second year now. Although I love the subject matter, it has been a very difficult 11/2 years so far. Please pray for my classroom management skills, and my ability to stay sane. I also am praying to be able to go into high school next year (my first love in teaching). Erin is taking this year off of school to raise our child, and will probably go back to work in some capacity next year.
Birth
Here is one of the 1st good pictures of Ella at the hospital, she was 9 lbs 3 oz, and made her mother go through 40 hrs of labor and a C-section.
This is me (Ian) the nervous yet excited father about to go into the C-section room.
And finally the hardworking mother with her prize. Born August 21, 2005. We were very relieved when she came.