Waiting No More

Well, for those of you waiting on pins and needles as I have been, the wait is over. I am not teaching summer school.
It is almost funny (almost). I had actually decided yesterday that I was going to tell them at the end of the day that if they still didn't know if I was working, that I would not be available. I left my message and half an hour later they called back and told me that they didn't have a position for me anyway.
I am actually pretty relieved and was praying for this. I did set a boundary, but didn't have to look like a quitter either. And now I get more time home with my baby. So, I am glad about that.
My only struggle is with this overarching sense of injustice and anger. They care more about making sure certain people get to make money, than about helping kids. And that is really depressing. Many of you might think that this is obvious. But, it hasn't been to me. There have been people I have met who I do think care about the kids and doing what is right. But, maybe not if it means making vocal people unhappy. So, I am disappointed. But, one thing I need to learn (again) is that I cannot put my hope in people - only, ultimately, in Christ.
"Preserve me, Oh Lord, for I take refuge in You..."
So, pray for both Ian and I and our Fall positions. And pray I can find a way to make some money to help out this summer.

Waiting....

Well, it seems things are up in the air for my summer school job....AGAIN. I was told that they have to look around and see if there is anyone else who wants the job first, then, if no one else wants it or is more qualified, I can have it.
I must admit, my pride REALLY reacted to this. I have felt betrayed, unappreciated, and basically screwed (Sorry for the salty language). And now I don't know what to do. Do I even want to work for these people? I don't know. But, will it hurt my future prospects for the fall if I don't? I don't know. Would I rather just stay home this summer and focus on the two classes I am taking, or do tutoring or something else instead? I don't know. So, I am waiting. Waiting to figure out what I want. And waiting to find out what the school is going to do.
Please pray for me. I am tired of feeling frustrated and confused. And pray that God's hand brings about what He wants in all this, because I am just clueless...

Dedicated to Ella's dedication

Ella has been dedicated! All the family was there and of course, Ella's wonderful godparents and our dear friends: Tia and Arturo Mendoza. It was really beautiful and we were able to share Ella's life verse that we picked for her- Matthew 5:15 "Let your light shine before men that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father who is in heaven". Eleanor means light. Our prayer is that she will be a light in Compton and the world for Christ.
Enjoy the pics !

More Updates

Well, it' s been an interesting ride this last week. After having done a ton of work setting up testing to place students in summer school, I was told at the beginning of the week that I would not be teaching summer school. What?!! I got really upset, then accepted it (after all, I am taking summer school classes at night myself) and wondered if maybe Compton Unified is really where I am meant to be. So, just when I resigned myself, they called me on Thursday to tell me I will be teaching. What in the world?! Make up your minds, why doncha!However, I still have not been officially reinstated by the district, so we will see what happens. It has been frustrating, to say the least. Here I am, going to school to learn about literacy, which they desperately need, and they aren't taking advantage of it. Anyone else ever feel like they are casting pearls to swine?
In other news, Ian is doing curriculum again this summer, a job we think will be a nice break from crazy kids, though we still don't know what either one of us is doing in the Fall. So, we know just what is in front of us, but no further. But, isn't that how God works sometimes? I guess if we really knew what was in store for us, we would freak out.
Please keep praying for the future for us. The ideal is for Ian to be teaching high school here and for me to be doing literacy part time. But, we know God knows best, and so our ultimate prayer is that He be in control of our lives.

Gpa party at Mama D's

We have a very cool extended family. We met together with the Simpsons (Grandma B's cousins) and partied to celebrate Grandpa Batstone. Ethan Batstone works at the new Mama D's location in Newport Beach. Great restaurant. Great service. Great food. Great company. I think Ella was passed around to every waitress.